19th Sunday in Ordinary Time
Readings of the day: 1 Kings 19:9a, 11-13a; Psalm 85:9, 10, 11-12, 13-14; Romans 9:1-5; Matthew 14:22-33
How
deeply do our own experiences; our society and culture; our families, friends,
and acquaintances; people we regard as leaders, in society and in our Church,
influence our basic image of who God is? Of how many different images of God;
popular understandings of God are we able to think?
Maybe
thanks to the influence of Pope Francis, although God has been understood in
these terms long before him, we may be developing an increasing awareness in
our Church and broader world of God as merciful; a God who calls us to be
merciful and kind to one another. My observation, though, is that this
increased emphasis on a merciful God calling for a more merciful Church and
world has not pleased everybody. How do we balance mercy with moral
accountability? How do we respond to people who persist stubbornly in defiance
of moral norms of Church or of societies; who persist in sin? Might an
authoritarian God resonate better with some who are worried about too
permissive an image of God, so that moral decay and, eventually, the whittling
away of any sense of right and wrong, continue unchecked?
What
other images of God, besides the merciful God, the permissive God, and the
authoritarian God, vie for space in our minds and in our experience? Much like
the authoritarian God is the angry, punishing God. There is the God of military
might, or the God who blesses wealth (for some, this God of the so-called
“prosperity Gospel” also curses people who are poor, sick, with disabilities,
or otherwise disadvantaged). The God who sets the universe in motion and then
leaves it, and us, to our own devices, is also alive and well in our world: The
impersonal, distant, “blind watchmaker” God or, as I have heard this god called
among my brother Basilians, “Yoyo” God, as in “You’re on your own”!
These
are only a few predominant images of God, of the top of my head, that we might
experience. None of these images of God are perfect, although some are better
than others. Some have more of a basis in Scripture than others. Today we hear
about the prophet Elijah in 1 Kings. Elijah hides in a cave on Mount Horeb. Why
would Elijah want to hide himself in a cave on Mount Horeb? The reading we hear
today from 1 Kings is right after Elijah has killed all the prophets of Ba’al,
a false god in Israel worshipped by the queen, Jezebel. In a rage, Jezebel
calls for Elijah to be killed and so, fearing for his life, Elijah flees to the
cave on Horeb.
Who
could fault Elijah, his life in danger for obeying God against the prophets of
Ba’al, for believing himself to be a failure, “no better than [his] ancestors”
in eliminating from Israel any worship of foreign gods? More importantly, who
could fault Elijah for understanding God first and foremost as a God of might;
an angry and violent God? After all, this kind of God had been Elijah’s
experience: The God who, through Elijah, had responded to the idolatry of
Jezebel and the people of Israel, and Jezebel’s murder of the prophets of the
LORD, by having the prophets of Ba’al slain by the sword? This same God now
seemed content to leave Elijah on his own on Horeb to die.
At
this point, though, when Elijah is most stuck on his images of God as mighty
and perhaps angry and violent, and then as distant and allowing Elijah to
sink into despair, God calls Elijah out of the cave. The LORD says to Elijah
that he “is about to pass by.” Will Elijah recognize the presence of the LORD
when he passes by Mount Horeb? The first vision Elijah experiences that might
be God is of a strong wind, “splitting mountains and breaking rocks in pieces.”
And, we hear, “after the wind” is “an earthquake” and then “a fire.” Do any of
us wonder what Elijah may have been thinking as he was witnessing these
visions? Might he have been thinking how closely the wind, the earthquake, and
the fire resonated with his prior experience of God: Mighty, angry, violent,
and even destructive; a God to be feared more than loved?
To Elijah’s credit, he is able
to discern that none of these visions; none of these images— the wind, the
earthquake, and the fire— are adequate images of God. Elijah’s and our God is
“not in the wind… not in the earthquake,” and “not in the fire.” No, Elijah’s
and our best and fullest experience of God is in “the sound of sheer silence.”
It is as though, through the silence, God says to Elijah, “Do not be afraid. Do
not fear the wrath and destruction of Jezebel. Do not fear me, as though I am
an angry and violent God. I have chosen you as my prophet. Rise and wait for me
at the entrance to the cave. I will be with you, in calm silence.”
Is this God who called Elijah
from the cave on Horeb; is our God not the same God who has been with us from the
first moments of creation? St. Paul pleads with his own people in his Letter to
the Romans to recognize that the God who once appeared to Elijah in “the sound
of sheer silence” is the same God who has been with us all along. This God, our
God, gave to the people of Israel first “the adoption, the glory, the
covenants… the Law, the worship, and the promises… the patriarchs” and finally
“the Christ.” Our God is not to be feared but to be worshipped in love. Our God
is “not in the wind… not in the earthquake,” and “not in the fire,” but in “the
sound of sheer silence”; in the peace and unity we build in our Church, our
communities, our households, and among nations. God is with us in his kindly
sustenance of creation; in forgiveness of our sin and of our false images of
God that we too often still promote to our world: The gods of fear, of anger,
of escalating threats, of violence, of military “fire and fury”; or the
impersonal “yoyo” god— “You’re on your own”!
Do we not, though, still in
our day have difficulty with all these incomplete and inadequate images of God?
Does our world not still, too often, fear God instead of loving God and, in
loving God, learn to love one another and uphold one another’s basic dignity as
creatures of God? Do too many people today (including ourselves perhaps;
including me sometimes) not still doubt the loving kindness of our God by which
we are ultimately saved?
To us as to Jesus’ disciples
on the boat in Matthew’s Gospel who “cry out in fear” amid the storm; to us as
to Peter who, thinking he is able to walk on water by himself before he becomes
frightened by the wind and begins to sink; to us as St. Paul to the people who
first heard him; to us as to Elijah hidden in despair on Mount Horeb, God
extends a hand of kindness, encouragement, and peace, and calls out: “Take
heart, it is I; do not be afraid.” Firmly yet gently, God challenges our
incomplete and inadequate images and understandings of who God is; our fear
that prevents us from loving God and one another as we are called to do: “You
of little faith, why did you doubt”?
Our God is in the calming of
the storm at sea; in the calming of our fears; in the calming of the chaos and
conflict of our world; in the calming of our false or at least incomplete
images of God as either behind the chaos or distant from it. Our God “not in
the wind… not in the earthquake,” and “not in the fire,” but in the silence; in
the calm. May we not doubt. May we not fear, but may we worship and celebrate
in love of God and of one another.
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